Khamosh sa Afsana....

Khamosh sa Afsana....pani se likha hota.....na tum ne kaha hota na humne suna hota!! Dil ki baat na poocho dil toh aata rahega.....(2) Dil behkata raha hai, Dil behkata rahega.....Dil ko tumne....kuch samjhaya hota.....

Ferris Wheel!

I believe life is soon becoming a ferris wheel....everyday, year after year...u face situations that may not necessarily be new to you...sumone lives d same phase at sum point in life...n d same churns to come back to u!! My question is do all face each incident with equal confusion?? No! Then why am i soooo baffled....i feel as though someone has put a gun on my head and asked me to act in a manner dat best suits me!! But who gives u d right to decide, what is good for me n wat is not? I wana fall n get hurt....n den realise my mistake...lemme do dis, n feel happy momentarily....let me hurt n let me collect d pieces of my own heart....

Yeh jo halka...halka uns hai....muje bekabu bana gaya!! Hawa ka jhoka aaya muje apne sath uda le gaya! Muje udhna hai sabse uncha....itne uppar ki koi mujhe rok na paye!!

They tell me not too!!

They tell me not too....
But i feel like,
They tell me don't do it...
But i move,
I know its wrong...but i tread d path...
n yet it feels so strong!
I am heading towards doom
N there is still no clue...
Wat i'm doin is wrong!
It breaks my heart....n i kno now wat

Ore manwa tu toh bawra hai!!

Orey manva tu to bavra hai
Tu hi jaane tu kya sochta hai
Tu hi jaane tu kya sochta hai bavre
Kyun dikhaye sapne tu sote jaagte
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
(Nainon ko moond moond)
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
Kaise main chaloon, dekh na sakoon
Anjaane raastein

(chorous)
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Dheeme bole koi iktara iktara, dheeme bole koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara

Sun rahi hoon sudh budh khoke koi main kahani
Poori kahani hai kya kise hai pata
Main to kisiki hoke yeh bhi na jaani
Ruth hai ye do pal ki ya rehgi sada
(kise hai pata… kise hai pata)
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
(Nainon ko moond moond)
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
Kaise main chaloon, dekh na sakoon
Anjaane raastein

A different stroke!

It feels d same...n i hav no control over it...its flowing out of my hands into a vast sea....n i don't know wher it takes me! Y is so easy for sumone to bring abt a stir in the life of someone....who is content with his/her set up? There are so many questions that cum to my mind. I wana understand why it has become so important to make life complicated. A story that is often pushed under the carpet is still so pertinent in our society n in our life'...a woman bein tested for her sheer power of bein able to bear n still smile! Its a turmoil one does not wish to be a part of.....n i want to stop rite their in my shoes n look back at what i need to introspect.....i need to endure this stage n get past it! All I ask for is some time....n d same to pass by me....leavin everythin d way it is!

Always let down!!!

Life may have weird ways of showing you the mirror.....i thought i am happy in my bubble of a good life....but hey...i walk/stomp thru my expectations each day....hoping against hope and wanting to be happy!! My job sucks....i hav had a rough patch lately...bad...long working days, feeling upset...n cumin back to work back at home....dying to sleep but do not get sleep....i am awake early morning wondering what am i doin n where am i......this was never my plan!!! I just wanted d comforts of love n some security.....but like they say it is ever meant to be....i find myself fighting against time and odds each day....Valentines day it is.....n here i am feelin down under the dumps....can not explain dis feeling of moroseness....n self pity.....

i guess not a day to feel positive.......

Exactly a year later......

I'm back!! From where? Heehee...no where was just here not bringing myself to write my blog...lots of things happened....good...n a very few bad! Thank God for that....

A few highlights of the past few months:

- i'm still holding d job i got last year dis time.....
- Surprisingly, Zaman changed 2 since then........i thought that would have been me!!!
- Paid up higher rent in posh Delhi
- Faced typical housewife problems...like scarcity of water....oooh!! Dats d worst!!
- Got to see Delhi n more of it....
- Hey i'm becoming a foodie too.....eat, eat n just eat....eat whatever u see...pani puri, bhel puri, amrak, KFC, Mac D's....I'm gonna be descriptive of dat in the next post....
my previous posts were becoming kind of boring, so i needed to get my act together rite....

Although at dis point I have lost of things to write about....n i just wana enjoy the flow of words through my fingers...falling just in place....my mind filled with a thousand visuals but the aim remains to keep it more interesting then the last. Now, I think i sound philosophical too..