Can't get any worse :-)

Yeah.....you read dat right, I said Can't get any worse and there I flash my famous smile :-) just like dis.....

I am sitting all alone today in the room that was filled with people just a week back...so you make place for people in your office, at home and in your heart! Most often people who make a place in your heart remain there for a good long time. Some memories you endear and some you just wish you could erase. As far as your office colleagues/ friends go....some go ahead and become frnds for life while the others are remembered your acquaintances.

With me most of the time people just remain as acquaintances and very rarely classify as close frnds and I like it like dat....c'mon how many people do I accomodate, in my lil heart here....hehehehe....no seriously....i believe relations should be maintained and if you can't do that then you have no right to put them on your list of frnds.

Hahaha....right as I type in these lines...there is an old song palying in the background - Kab ke bichade huye hum aaj kahan aakey mile.....sumthin for frnds u meet unexpectedly on the road or a coffee shop or most likely in a Metro like Delhi you meet in the'metro' :-)

My Loneliness is killin me.....

:-) Jai ho mata Britney devi ki :-P for givin me these words as i pen down wat cums to my mind....hmmm..let's see i had 2 days off, usually the last Saturdays are an off...most of the time feels like a boon today out of nowhere i feel as though- Really, i don't need two days it can be quite harrowing mentally for me...Reasons u ask n i hav plenty...

- Reason 1 - Husband there - Not there!!

Perfect dilemma for Mrs Parmar...ooh....still gettin use to dat.....d sound of Smita Kohli was such a relief!! hehehe.....So I have married a hotelier!!

Caution: If spinsters readin dis - PLS DO NOT COMMIT THIS CRIME!! Seriously, i mean i am sure animals live a better life than dat!! Ok, there is moolah...but much later in life....u need to first begin with givin up on wordly joys such as love, sleep, timepass n ur health!!


- Reason 2 - No one to talk to such that i would like!!

I mean i am not interested in talkin to aunties...n wat they ate n wat i am eating.....ladies, pls get a life!!


- Reason 3 - Watching T.V!!

A reason for timepass...but hey my time is not passing, now wat to do? Sum silly Rahul Mahajan n his flimsical wife creating national news....wats worse all channels are covering the same crap!! Whatever happened to responsible journalism?? Duh? Have u heard of dat in a million years??


All in all I conclude - Please Boss u r d best n do not give us 2 leavs together cos i dunno wat to do with myself :-P

Happy Birthday to me!

:-) Yes, that time of the year when i sit n wish for all that i want :-) Lets see what i have on wishlist this year, as i turn 27....old i know....but hey no regrets :-)

- I wish i get to meet my parents
- I wish I get to see my sisters n my lil baby boy
- I wish to spend some time during the day with my hubby....my frnds in pune
- I want flowers all around me....hehehehe....any florists listenin? :-P
- I want to hear the nazm my best frnd has written in my honor....ooh feels spl already :-)
I want to be surrounded by all so that i do not realise that i am standing alone :-(

Amazing Force

Most of the times i feel as though i drag myself to write and today i suddenly feel like wanting to write one blog after the other...like there is so much to be told and yet i write not....

I have to believe that there is power in the forces in between 2 individuals romantically inclined...yes cliched although but magnetism found new attraction when 2 become 1 in thots n in their mind. Maybe me writing this as a married woman may sound inappropriate but well i am an individual with an opinion and if i feel strongly i do not mince my words in accepting the same. Laws of attraction never mentioned:

1. That you can fall in love twice over with equal power that succumbs to the presseure felt in the heart.

2. That you can begin to fall out of love after sometime

3. Although you know it is all for you but you are tempted to push it away

4. I don't want to argue but you do and often upset the other

Sometimes you think.....

Yes...most of us like to think thatw e think....but we actually don't!! Yes, we don't...we are actually pondering over an issue that might have happened over the day. Trust me when you actually get yourself to think...it will be more profound. You begin to look at everything around you in a different light as though tracing the cause of it being around or with you!

Sometimes I just wana fly.....float....swim....soar!
Somedays I want to be held...n just don't want to be disturbed! Not a word to come out of my mouth....only my heart in its solace!
This may be a loving hug or merely a tite hold from a frnd...u just want to do sumthin that is not usual.
Sometimes you want to be around your parents and know that they will love n care for you....holding you to tell you they are there.
I want to flow in a stream....no boundations to my soul...
I want to sleep like a baby with nothing to worry or care...sometimes i wish i can seek peace like that of a baby in the mother's womb! N never cum out (sorry mummy i don't want to :-) )

About Time

Its about time that i open up my mind n talk to myself....well...literally!! I am on an all time high but i know i still need to be grounded....all is peachy around me yet so scary that i begin to wonder....is dis for real? :-) Now....there i see a smile...crack up on my lips...n there is still no reason to be so content.....

Lemme think...wat can it be?

- Is it d new t.v?
- My job.....nah.....no way!!
- A familiar smile dat makes my day :-) Bingo!

So well....yess...there is no philosophy to dis, but i describe it as doin a Smita....yah...dats rite....doin a Smita.....is wen u know all is well...u screw it up for urself. Reason 2: Doin a Smita is not knowing wher to turn to wen u hav to run from a situation n still expect ppl to be ther for u.....strange ain't it d ways of life? U r just soo full of urself dat u fail to notice wat d other feels.....nai kya??? ha...ha....where am i learning all dis from? shhhshh...tch tch...d mad gal syndrome has hit me again :-)

Hmmmmmm...strange!

I get this strange feeling...dat my mind n heart r playing a game...my mind refuses to budge while dis hopeless heart wants to twitter around....Dil toh baccha hai jeee!! eeow....no!! Hell no! I believe ki dil toh baccha ho hi nahi sakta, hota toh itna kaise samajh leta....effortlessly :-) Muje hassi bhi aati hai aur hairani bhi hoti hai....itna sab kaise mann mein sambhaloon....jazbaat jo dil mein hain unhe kahan nikalun?