Heavenly Abode! No no not yet.....I am sure we will all go there one day but hey not soo soon ::-P So yah....talking of an abode we are planning to shift from the accommodation we are in and want to shift soon.....
Our Criteria being:
- Close proximity to the metro station
- Safe n secure locality
- A spacious home....especially since we paying through our nose...it should be worth the money - Value for money actually!
I fail to believe that a metro like Delhi fails to offer you all the 3 essential aspects you are looking at. U look at something less than the perfect u are invited to view dingy pit holes n not to mention absolutely unacceptable surroundings.
Our dilemma bein dat just yesterday we saw a house which was so so perfect in everyway.....but alas!! the area happens to be very dingy n very commercial so you may wana think twice before you step out of the house wearing a tight short tee.....n brace your self for burglary behind your back. So hubby dearest thinks he wud not want to test waters...with eve teasers n d likes of it......so the search is still on....n we croon...
" Do deewane shehar mein, raat mein ya dopahar mein, aabudana dhoondte hain ek aashiyana - Doondhte hain...do deewane shehar mein"
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
Feeling lighter....
I dunno....sum days back...i remember dis feelin of bein guilty of sumthing dat i am doin wrong...n i kno wat it is!! But since last nite i feel n all new me....i mean there are times wen u have done sumthin dat is not acceptable u look for ways to squirm out of it n i think i am finally determined to do dat!!
Yes take it slow...n go step by step....u will know why it is so wrong urself!! I mean who really wants to ruin a good life for sumthin dat is n was temporary!!
Days like dis u reflect back n ponder whatever made u take dat ONE step....did u not think den? What was that urge? I call it plain....feelin of rebellion n probably curiosity to do sumthin I never did!! Think abt it- U stand to lose it all n yet Satin tempts u enof to take d step....It remains to be seen dat how each individual reacts to any given situation...we all hav our ways n sumone like me likes to fall before i learn :-)
No regrets....because I am still smiling...d past is behind...now moving ahead for a more positive feeling :-)
Yes take it slow...n go step by step....u will know why it is so wrong urself!! I mean who really wants to ruin a good life for sumthin dat is n was temporary!!
Days like dis u reflect back n ponder whatever made u take dat ONE step....did u not think den? What was that urge? I call it plain....feelin of rebellion n probably curiosity to do sumthin I never did!! Think abt it- U stand to lose it all n yet Satin tempts u enof to take d step....It remains to be seen dat how each individual reacts to any given situation...we all hav our ways n sumone like me likes to fall before i learn :-)
No regrets....because I am still smiling...d past is behind...now moving ahead for a more positive feeling :-)
Thursday, September 30, 2010
I have seen crossing limits.....
Today has been a funny day....amidst all the media hype of the Ayodhya Verdict....out of the blue we colleagues decided to discuss wat is actually the truest test of love??
Here is an excerpt for all to know (n makes me happy):
Gal A - The truest test of lov is wen he fights with his family to marry me, makes the effort to meet me after work inspite of his busy schedules....eventually we going to get married next month......wah wah!! Clap!!
Gal B - I am elder to him by a year but he still lovs me like a kid n wants to settle soon to marry me, he has given up non-veg for me, else he was a total foodie.....especially chicken!! He is my mom's best frnds son.....i dunno wat is going to happen...but he lovs me with all his heart!!
Married Woman(dats me)- :-) :-) no apprehensions in being referred to as the knowledgable!! How o they think I kno it all....i dunno....but most of the times i have answers :-)
But my lov story has 2 phases before n after marriage!!
Before Marriage
- My guy was away studying at IHM Punjab- hectic schedules etc....but he wud wake up early to just speak to me, raining like cats n dogs....tryin to rush to the mearest telephone booth to just hear my voice, waited patiently a year before i said I lov u.
- When he had no cash - he made a card himself with I lov u written a thousand times in different ink...n it was valentines day :-)
- when he came on vacation, seeing me was d only thing on his mind....he wud reach home after a 36 hour long train journey n pull out the bike to just see me standing in the balcony....my house was 20 mins away from his, he wud (according to me ) unexpectedly bump into me after college mid way sumwher just to say hi.....but he had planned it all d while :-)
- He flew all the way especially to be on my birthday.....sacrificing his 20 days salary to pleasantly surprise me.... n i was
- He send 1000, red roses, cake n a teddy bear on my birthday from delhi to make me happy :-) i was on cloud 9, really !!
After Marriage
- If i am still sleeping n he is up early for his shift, he will pray and quickly rush to the room to give me the dhoop/agarbati ka saya. Sho shweeth :-)
- Even if he cums at 1am at nite after a long day at work n i am not well, he quickly changes to give me cold compression.
- Sumtimes he wakes early to feed me my first meal of the day
- He keeps karwachauth for me!!!! God bless him :-)
TELL ME - WHO IS BLESSED WITH THE TRUEST LOV??? I kno i win hands down!!!
That is a picture of us - Our First wedding anniversary :-) Anniversary number 2 coming sooon :-)
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Dab - aaang!!
Just saw the film and have no words to describe what fans can do to make sallu miyan rise up so high!!! I felt nostalgic almost like watching a movie from the 80's when all you had to do was seek revenge and sing songs!! Now only munni could take d blame of getting badnaam...while i think the real rogue is the poor script writer!! Someone paid him enough money to glorify Salman in a slapstick masala movie such as Dabang!! Well, the cash registers are ringing and Arbaaz Khan has made some money to save face and not live on what Malaika earns for the family :-P Dats rude S.K!! True it is!!
Sonakshi Sinha does not feel like a fresh face, if there was any one younger than an ageing Salman...she fits the role of the mother ....lol.....dat brings me to another cruel comment - Can someone explain to me why does Shotgun's daughter resemble Reena Roy so much??? Hahahahaha.....trust me she does....don't believe it check it out for urself....clcik on google images for both the actresses and compare in one glance.....bingo!! I am rite!!
Sonakshi Sinha does not feel like a fresh face, if there was any one younger than an ageing Salman...she fits the role of the mother ....lol.....dat brings me to another cruel comment - Can someone explain to me why does Shotgun's daughter resemble Reena Roy so much??? Hahahahaha.....trust me she does....don't believe it check it out for urself....clcik on google images for both the actresses and compare in one glance.....bingo!! I am rite!!
Some old memories
No no....i am not going to be talkin abt how i grew up n all dat!! Well, we all are born n eventually grow....only circumstances make things different...isn't it?
I have some sketchy memories of the past, when all your motive in life was to watch t.v and sleep! I recollect days when having a television at home was a sign of prosperity!! We had a t.v too and guess what i loved watching the most? The advertisements....so many on my list that still seem so impactful to me like the advt on Hum do hamare do - with a glass jar and 3 tomatoes put in side to depict that till the jar had 2 tomatoes it was alrite when u add a third one you are unable to close the lid and well, it only squeezes out!! So people have a small family...was anyone listening?? den? or even now? I doubt!!
That reminds me of a corny line too - Hum do hamare do- zyada ho toh fekh do!! lol.....hey, i can not complain neither can i comment thats because I am the 3rd sibling....hehehehe...more like a failed attempt at getting a boy in the family!!! lol.....hahahaha....i hav heard my grandma say that ample number of times....but thankfully my parents don't feel the same- instead believe that their daughters are indeed a blessing - lov u mom n dad :-)
Advertisement No 2: This I still imitate like a moron because there is a lady in our office with the same name - I am sure, u remember - Oho...Deepikaji....aaaeye aaeye...yeh lijiye aapka...saamaan.....yeh nahi woh!!! The lines seem embossed in my head.....i can rattle it off like a mimic :-P another talent that i use only when i want to see people around me laugh as well.
I have some sketchy memories of the past, when all your motive in life was to watch t.v and sleep! I recollect days when having a television at home was a sign of prosperity!! We had a t.v too and guess what i loved watching the most? The advertisements....so many on my list that still seem so impactful to me like the advt on Hum do hamare do - with a glass jar and 3 tomatoes put in side to depict that till the jar had 2 tomatoes it was alrite when u add a third one you are unable to close the lid and well, it only squeezes out!! So people have a small family...was anyone listening?? den? or even now? I doubt!!
That reminds me of a corny line too - Hum do hamare do- zyada ho toh fekh do!! lol.....hey, i can not complain neither can i comment thats because I am the 3rd sibling....hehehehe...more like a failed attempt at getting a boy in the family!!! lol.....hahahaha....i hav heard my grandma say that ample number of times....but thankfully my parents don't feel the same- instead believe that their daughters are indeed a blessing - lov u mom n dad :-)
Advertisement No 2: This I still imitate like a moron because there is a lady in our office with the same name - I am sure, u remember - Oho...Deepikaji....aaaeye aaeye...yeh lijiye aapka...saamaan.....yeh nahi woh!!! The lines seem embossed in my head.....i can rattle it off like a mimic :-P another talent that i use only when i want to see people around me laugh as well.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Power of Love!!
After millions n zillions of definitions on dat powerful feeling of love...i feel the need to add more to the dictionary....like in a previous post i said that you can fall out of love, and i got a few I stick by it!! N some more inferences in continuation....
- Love can happen twice!! Yes, y not we are blessed with a heart that has the capacity to love and hate equally. So y not use it to the optimum!!
- You will fall out of love eventually!! Because love is just so overpowering that sooner or later u r bound to get over d feeling...or me a shift in affection can result in the same.
- Boy n Gal are alwaz fatally attracted n can never remain only frnds!! Hmmm....i remember this corny dialog from maine pyar kiya that said- Ladka aur Ladki kabhi dost nahi ho sakte!! True....There is alwaz an attraction that is pulling u towards each other - it can be beauty, brains or just common interests!
- Love can be love n still not be bound in a commitment! For some reasons if you are loved or love someone but can not give it a social name- You can call it only LOVE!!! Who tells u to alwas give a name to a relationship? If u hav a frnd in the opp sex, just to avoid sarcastic comments u are willing to become siblings - I hear a lot of that these days - Woh toh mera bhai hai!! Mere behen jaisi hai!! But yyyyyyyy? You like or love someone cos your heart says so....you are not answerable to anyone else!! Well, they definitely do not know y dat 'special' frnd of ur's is on your mind all the time....n it may not be sexual....just plain liking!!!
- Loving your Friend is Normal!! Yes, you love your friend becos he or she is alwaz with you. Not because you want more s**!!! That is lame! When you get love, support n trust in the purest form you will love that person automatically.
- Liking and Love eventually lead to physical attraction!! Men/ wome can stand on roof tops n claim that their love is PURE!! But somewhere deep down there is a burning desire to touch n feel....out of sheer curiosity of getting intimate with the one you love.
More comments to follow..........
- Love can happen twice!! Yes, y not we are blessed with a heart that has the capacity to love and hate equally. So y not use it to the optimum!!
- You will fall out of love eventually!! Because love is just so overpowering that sooner or later u r bound to get over d feeling...or me a shift in affection can result in the same.
- Boy n Gal are alwaz fatally attracted n can never remain only frnds!! Hmmm....i remember this corny dialog from maine pyar kiya that said- Ladka aur Ladki kabhi dost nahi ho sakte!! True....There is alwaz an attraction that is pulling u towards each other - it can be beauty, brains or just common interests!
- Love can be love n still not be bound in a commitment! For some reasons if you are loved or love someone but can not give it a social name- You can call it only LOVE!!! Who tells u to alwas give a name to a relationship? If u hav a frnd in the opp sex, just to avoid sarcastic comments u are willing to become siblings - I hear a lot of that these days - Woh toh mera bhai hai!! Mere behen jaisi hai!! But yyyyyyyy? You like or love someone cos your heart says so....you are not answerable to anyone else!! Well, they definitely do not know y dat 'special' frnd of ur's is on your mind all the time....n it may not be sexual....just plain liking!!!
- Loving your Friend is Normal!! Yes, you love your friend becos he or she is alwaz with you. Not because you want more s**!!! That is lame! When you get love, support n trust in the purest form you will love that person automatically.
- Liking and Love eventually lead to physical attraction!! Men/ wome can stand on roof tops n claim that their love is PURE!! But somewhere deep down there is a burning desire to touch n feel....out of sheer curiosity of getting intimate with the one you love.
More comments to follow..........
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Jaane nahi denge tujhe!!
The famous 3 Idiots number never made more sense to me than it did today :-(( hmmmm...dat sad, with a heavy heart n tears welling up i play d song n expect dat miraculously life will change n be fun again :-) Silly me...i fail to understand...damage done is done for once n for all.....
For me....i like to smile away my pain (yeah...new terminology just invented....by moi) but its not happening....d perfect pair does not part into a grin to state d least.....y is my smile missing? y is my heart so heavy? I wonder how n y? The answer is simple....the loss of presence, the familiar touch, the loss of a simple smile across the room...simple joys will now me lost in the mobile bills, internet bills and sheer distance!!
Y don't things just remain d way the are wher nuthin changes at all......u wake up n go to work!!! Does dat ever change????? NEVER!!! Then y d other natural n desired things fall prey to - life has to change!!
For me....i like to smile away my pain (yeah...new terminology just invented....by moi) but its not happening....d perfect pair does not part into a grin to state d least.....y is my smile missing? y is my heart so heavy? I wonder how n y? The answer is simple....the loss of presence, the familiar touch, the loss of a simple smile across the room...simple joys will now me lost in the mobile bills, internet bills and sheer distance!!
Y don't things just remain d way the are wher nuthin changes at all......u wake up n go to work!!! Does dat ever change????? NEVER!!! Then y d other natural n desired things fall prey to - life has to change!!
Meeting n parting ways of life!
Hmmm....writing after a long gap...but like they say wen u have the thoughts words flow out of your mind n through ur hands.....one such day today!! A very very close frnd has left d company n moved on.....n few of my thoughts on dat are:
- I am happy for u!!
- Damn cool...all d best
- Hey keep in touch
- I will miss u :-(
- Pls don't goooooooo!!!
Mixed bag of emotions n mixed thots!! We face dis at sum point of time in life....for sum weird reason i am crooning - Milke bichadna toh dastoor ho gaya...yaadon mein teri majboor ho gaya...oh sanam unn yaadon ki kasam....A Lucky Ali famous number! But so true....human nature u feel like clinging on to every thing and every thought!! As i sit to write...i see laughter, smiles exchanged, the mean jokes, the helpful frnd and above all a great character i met in the metro city :-)
Usually i am termed 'extra pally' but with him...yes its not a girl best frnd but a guy....I was never ever conscious....sumthing abt him...things that i will never tell him ever but do know its sooo typical of him:
- He is handsome, smart n in his words DASHING!!
- A guy with a 1000 watt smile
- Very practical n down to earth
- Diplomatic wen he has to be....u can trust ur office gossip with him
- He writes mind blowing corporate content n even better...much much better poetry...dat u r bound to lov it :-)
- Laughs n chuckles like a kid....although a well built man all of 28 himself
- His credibility n responsibility makes him stand out in the crowd of 60 people in office.
- Everybody sets examples of him....his style of work, his nature and funny enough to the extent his resignation became an example too.....
:-) i don't want him to read dis....he may reach cloud 9 :-) n ritely so...nai kya!! hahaha....another silly word he has left with me....
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Haappy Independence Day!!
So its the 15th of August and there is this mass hysteria among people to believe that they are proud Indians!! Wow!! that must make them feel good na.....these dozen sms forwards.....umpteen number of orkut profile pic changes to the tricolor...gals in white flashing the tri color bangles....NOW THATS VERY VERY INDIAN!!......I don't think so.....
I wish to ask these 'I am Proud to be Indian' Fans.......tell me aren't u the same people who:
- Eat shamelessly inside the metro, when there is a constant announcement to keep the metro clean
- Are you not the same people who hate it n then often change the channel when a desh bhakti song is playing.....Kar chale hum fida...jaano tan saathiyon!! Well, ironically it pleases your ears only on the 26th of Jan & 15th of August
- Did you just say you are proud to be an Indian, when you conveniently married a Britisher and are already a citizen of U.K? Wow!! If you were sooooooo Indian why crib of the hot summers in India....cos London felt so much better did'nt it?
- If asked what your favorite film is you rattle of all the English films you know....I am sure Sholay or Border is no where close on that list.....
boo...hooo!!
Well, having said all that the point is why be such hypocrites when you can live life being neutral? C'mon accept and live with the fact that a lot of adaptations have happened in our culture and its no more chalk n cheese.....I on my part absolutely detest chanting I am proud to be Indian...when deep down I am just any other person in the crowd living each day as it comes!!
I wish to ask these 'I am Proud to be Indian' Fans.......tell me aren't u the same people who:
- Eat shamelessly inside the metro, when there is a constant announcement to keep the metro clean
- Are you not the same people who hate it n then often change the channel when a desh bhakti song is playing.....Kar chale hum fida...jaano tan saathiyon!! Well, ironically it pleases your ears only on the 26th of Jan & 15th of August
- Did you just say you are proud to be an Indian, when you conveniently married a Britisher and are already a citizen of U.K? Wow!! If you were sooooooo Indian why crib of the hot summers in India....cos London felt so much better did'nt it?
- If asked what your favorite film is you rattle of all the English films you know....I am sure Sholay or Border is no where close on that list.....
boo...hooo!!
Well, having said all that the point is why be such hypocrites when you can live life being neutral? C'mon accept and live with the fact that a lot of adaptations have happened in our culture and its no more chalk n cheese.....I on my part absolutely detest chanting I am proud to be Indian...when deep down I am just any other person in the crowd living each day as it comes!!
Saturday, August 14, 2010
One after the other
De dhana dhan offer....one of those days...where I am sitting with my thoughts hovering my mind...n what better way to let it out than to pen it down on my blog...that i hvae been not visiting that often.
So here comes one more post after that exhaustive post :-) Now wat you ask? N i say its about a trait peculiar to women- Mood swings :-)
So there are days when you are angry, days when you are sad, days when you smile all day and some days when you feel completely numb!! I face the proverbial mood swing to....n usually those are the exact days that I am sad and not sporting my famous smile!! Famous I say because thats one of the only thing on me that never fades away in a hurry and adds value to my face.
- I can smile at anyone or anything when i please....an unknown face in the metro wanting to trip on me to get out at the station.
- I can smile at my tired looking colleague walking up the stairs with effort on an early monday morning.
- I can smile at my fav song playing in the office
- I can smile at the old landlady looking sick and wanting some company, so I drop in to say hi
- I can smile at my hubby who gives me weird excuses for smoking at work dat day
- I can smile at my friend who is leaving office in a few days and tell him that its ok and he should move on. While the truth is I am goin to miss him terribly.
- I can smile at this colleague who is looking at me through this glass window....I think he wants sumthin.....my smile....there u go :-)
- I can smile at my scowling boss when he has to ask me for an update on a project when he can visibly see that I have no work in hand....
So here comes one more post after that exhaustive post :-) Now wat you ask? N i say its about a trait peculiar to women- Mood swings :-)
So there are days when you are angry, days when you are sad, days when you smile all day and some days when you feel completely numb!! I face the proverbial mood swing to....n usually those are the exact days that I am sad and not sporting my famous smile!! Famous I say because thats one of the only thing on me that never fades away in a hurry and adds value to my face.
- I can smile at anyone or anything when i please....an unknown face in the metro wanting to trip on me to get out at the station.
- I can smile at my tired looking colleague walking up the stairs with effort on an early monday morning.
- I can smile at my fav song playing in the office
- I can smile at the old landlady looking sick and wanting some company, so I drop in to say hi
- I can smile at my hubby who gives me weird excuses for smoking at work dat day
- I can smile at my friend who is leaving office in a few days and tell him that its ok and he should move on. While the truth is I am goin to miss him terribly.
- I can smile at this colleague who is looking at me through this glass window....I think he wants sumthin.....my smile....there u go :-)
- I can smile at my scowling boss when he has to ask me for an update on a project when he can visibly see that I have no work in hand....
Think I am an expert....
Ok, its a consious decision to not make this post look like it is all about gyaan... but i have inferred upon sum interesting facts on the male species and I think you mite wana have a look:
- Men
Often classified as Mama's Boys, boyfrnd, husband and then eventually fathers.
My reference right now is to the brand of 'husbands' . Its a brand because they have a reputation to carry and they do that with elan.
Some Interesting Facts:
- Husbands like to believe that since they have the legal 'wedded license' the poor lil docile wife will never go away.....hah!!
- No matter how hard i work and i do not give my wife time....she knows i am doing it for 'US'
- I get a day off from work, I want to do as i please....so i will watch t.v, play video games, eat junk food, sleep all day and enjoy myself. Now obviously spending time with wife......ummm...lemme think ya....after she goes off to sleep.....duh??
- My wife is always nagging and pining like a puppy doggy that you do not spend time with me, look at me.....lets go out....lets eat out!! Wtf...get a life woman!!!
- She says anything i can brush her aside saying - I can't help, dis is my work and there is nothing i can do. So take it or leave it!! hah!!
Now I take the liberty of being the 'wife' and i have sum good responses for you mister!!! :-P
- So....I may not be Miss India or Miss World....but I am a woman and I have some appeal....no wonder you fell for me....so yeah....like u did....tom will, jim will and so will Harry :-) Like dat? don't ya.....lol.....
Read on.....
- Well, you working really hard honey.....but where is the money???? lol....show me the moolah....i can go shopping.....n if ther is no money how hard are you really working!!! lol......
Clap!! clap!!! Thank uuuuuuuuuuuuu :-)
- Ok, you have an off....honey you really deserve it!! So have fun...take care :-) But when i am back you still hooked on to t.v!! WTF.....so ok....i am missing nuthin...i am goin to sms my 'MALE' frnd from office and chat with him (and he hass all the time for me)......watch sum t.v and roll off to sleep!!! Yawn.....i did'nt notice u joined me late in bed!! Hahhh....howzzat :-P
- So if she cares for you...asks wat you ate, when will we go out....spend time with me na.....you don't like it!! Ok, fine!! If she looses interest in you she will not bother to ask...and soon don't be surprised if she cums home late cos she had a coffee date with a 'special' frnd.....oh!! dat sounds like fun!!
Trust me just writing this is tickling my senses so much.....that my empty office cubicle is roaring with laughter :-)))
- Men
Often classified as Mama's Boys, boyfrnd, husband and then eventually fathers.
My reference right now is to the brand of 'husbands' . Its a brand because they have a reputation to carry and they do that with elan.
Some Interesting Facts:
- Husbands like to believe that since they have the legal 'wedded license' the poor lil docile wife will never go away.....hah!!
- No matter how hard i work and i do not give my wife time....she knows i am doing it for 'US'
- I get a day off from work, I want to do as i please....so i will watch t.v, play video games, eat junk food, sleep all day and enjoy myself. Now obviously spending time with wife......ummm...lemme think ya....after she goes off to sleep.....duh??
- My wife is always nagging and pining like a puppy doggy that you do not spend time with me, look at me.....lets go out....lets eat out!! Wtf...get a life woman!!!
- She says anything i can brush her aside saying - I can't help, dis is my work and there is nothing i can do. So take it or leave it!! hah!!
Now I take the liberty of being the 'wife' and i have sum good responses for you mister!!! :-P
- So....I may not be Miss India or Miss World....but I am a woman and I have some appeal....no wonder you fell for me....so yeah....like u did....tom will, jim will and so will Harry :-) Like dat? don't ya.....lol.....
Read on.....
- Well, you working really hard honey.....but where is the money???? lol....show me the moolah....i can go shopping.....n if ther is no money how hard are you really working!!! lol......
Clap!! clap!!! Thank uuuuuuuuuuuuu :-)
- Ok, you have an off....honey you really deserve it!! So have fun...take care :-) But when i am back you still hooked on to t.v!! WTF.....so ok....i am missing nuthin...i am goin to sms my 'MALE' frnd from office and chat with him (and he hass all the time for me)......watch sum t.v and roll off to sleep!!! Yawn.....i did'nt notice u joined me late in bed!! Hahhh....howzzat :-P
- So if she cares for you...asks wat you ate, when will we go out....spend time with me na.....you don't like it!! Ok, fine!! If she looses interest in you she will not bother to ask...and soon don't be surprised if she cums home late cos she had a coffee date with a 'special' frnd.....oh!! dat sounds like fun!!
Trust me just writing this is tickling my senses so much.....that my empty office cubicle is roaring with laughter :-)))
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Can't get any worse :-)
Yeah.....you read dat right, I said Can't get any worse and there I flash my famous smile :-) just like dis.....
I am sitting all alone today in the room that was filled with people just a week back...so you make place for people in your office, at home and in your heart! Most often people who make a place in your heart remain there for a good long time. Some memories you endear and some you just wish you could erase. As far as your office colleagues/ friends go....some go ahead and become frnds for life while the others are remembered your acquaintances.
With me most of the time people just remain as acquaintances and very rarely classify as close frnds and I like it like dat....c'mon how many people do I accomodate, in my lil heart here....hehehehe....no seriously....i believe relations should be maintained and if you can't do that then you have no right to put them on your list of frnds.
Hahaha....right as I type in these lines...there is an old song palying in the background - Kab ke bichade huye hum aaj kahan aakey mile.....sumthin for frnds u meet unexpectedly on the road or a coffee shop or most likely in a Metro like Delhi you meet in the'metro' :-)
I am sitting all alone today in the room that was filled with people just a week back...so you make place for people in your office, at home and in your heart! Most often people who make a place in your heart remain there for a good long time. Some memories you endear and some you just wish you could erase. As far as your office colleagues/ friends go....some go ahead and become frnds for life while the others are remembered your acquaintances.
With me most of the time people just remain as acquaintances and very rarely classify as close frnds and I like it like dat....c'mon how many people do I accomodate, in my lil heart here....hehehehe....no seriously....i believe relations should be maintained and if you can't do that then you have no right to put them on your list of frnds.
Hahaha....right as I type in these lines...there is an old song palying in the background - Kab ke bichade huye hum aaj kahan aakey mile.....sumthin for frnds u meet unexpectedly on the road or a coffee shop or most likely in a Metro like Delhi you meet in the'metro' :-)
Sunday, August 1, 2010
My Loneliness is killin me.....
:-) Jai ho mata Britney devi ki :-P for givin me these words as i pen down wat cums to my mind....hmmm..let's see i had 2 days off, usually the last Saturdays are an off...most of the time feels like a boon today out of nowhere i feel as though- Really, i don't need two days it can be quite harrowing mentally for me...Reasons u ask n i hav plenty...
- Reason 1 - Husband there - Not there!!
Perfect dilemma for Mrs Parmar...ooh....still gettin use to dat.....d sound of Smita Kohli was such a relief!! hehehe.....So I have married a hotelier!!
Caution: If spinsters readin dis - PLS DO NOT COMMIT THIS CRIME!! Seriously, i mean i am sure animals live a better life than dat!! Ok, there is moolah...but much later in life....u need to first begin with givin up on wordly joys such as love, sleep, timepass n ur health!!
- Reason 2 - No one to talk to such that i would like!!
I mean i am not interested in talkin to aunties...n wat they ate n wat i am eating.....ladies, pls get a life!!
- Reason 3 - Watching T.V!!
A reason for timepass...but hey my time is not passing, now wat to do? Sum silly Rahul Mahajan n his flimsical wife creating national news....wats worse all channels are covering the same crap!! Whatever happened to responsible journalism?? Duh? Have u heard of dat in a million years??
All in all I conclude - Please Boss u r d best n do not give us 2 leavs together cos i dunno wat to do with myself :-P
- Reason 1 - Husband there - Not there!!
Perfect dilemma for Mrs Parmar...ooh....still gettin use to dat.....d sound of Smita Kohli was such a relief!! hehehe.....So I have married a hotelier!!
Caution: If spinsters readin dis - PLS DO NOT COMMIT THIS CRIME!! Seriously, i mean i am sure animals live a better life than dat!! Ok, there is moolah...but much later in life....u need to first begin with givin up on wordly joys such as love, sleep, timepass n ur health!!
- Reason 2 - No one to talk to such that i would like!!
I mean i am not interested in talkin to aunties...n wat they ate n wat i am eating.....ladies, pls get a life!!
- Reason 3 - Watching T.V!!
A reason for timepass...but hey my time is not passing, now wat to do? Sum silly Rahul Mahajan n his flimsical wife creating national news....wats worse all channels are covering the same crap!! Whatever happened to responsible journalism?? Duh? Have u heard of dat in a million years??
All in all I conclude - Please Boss u r d best n do not give us 2 leavs together cos i dunno wat to do with myself :-P
Monday, July 26, 2010
Happy Birthday to me!
:-) Yes, that time of the year when i sit n wish for all that i want :-) Lets see what i have on wishlist this year, as i turn 27....old i know....but hey no regrets :-)
- I wish i get to meet my parents
- I wish I get to see my sisters n my lil baby boy
- I wish to spend some time during the day with my hubby....my frnds in pune
- I want flowers all around me....hehehehe....any florists listenin? :-P
- I want to hear the nazm my best frnd has written in my honor....ooh feels spl already :-)
I want to be surrounded by all so that i do not realise that i am standing alone :-(
- I wish i get to meet my parents
- I wish I get to see my sisters n my lil baby boy
- I wish to spend some time during the day with my hubby....my frnds in pune
- I want flowers all around me....hehehehe....any florists listenin? :-P
- I want to hear the nazm my best frnd has written in my honor....ooh feels spl already :-)
I want to be surrounded by all so that i do not realise that i am standing alone :-(
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Amazing Force
Most of the times i feel as though i drag myself to write and today i suddenly feel like wanting to write one blog after the other...like there is so much to be told and yet i write not....
I have to believe that there is power in the forces in between 2 individuals romantically inclined...yes cliched although but magnetism found new attraction when 2 become 1 in thots n in their mind. Maybe me writing this as a married woman may sound inappropriate but well i am an individual with an opinion and if i feel strongly i do not mince my words in accepting the same. Laws of attraction never mentioned:
1. That you can fall in love twice over with equal power that succumbs to the presseure felt in the heart.
2. That you can begin to fall out of love after sometime
3. Although you know it is all for you but you are tempted to push it away
4. I don't want to argue but you do and often upset the other
I have to believe that there is power in the forces in between 2 individuals romantically inclined...yes cliched although but magnetism found new attraction when 2 become 1 in thots n in their mind. Maybe me writing this as a married woman may sound inappropriate but well i am an individual with an opinion and if i feel strongly i do not mince my words in accepting the same. Laws of attraction never mentioned:
1. That you can fall in love twice over with equal power that succumbs to the presseure felt in the heart.
2. That you can begin to fall out of love after sometime
3. Although you know it is all for you but you are tempted to push it away
4. I don't want to argue but you do and often upset the other
Sometimes you think.....
Yes...most of us like to think thatw e think....but we actually don't!! Yes, we don't...we are actually pondering over an issue that might have happened over the day. Trust me when you actually get yourself to think...it will be more profound. You begin to look at everything around you in a different light as though tracing the cause of it being around or with you!
Sometimes I just wana fly.....float....swim....soar!
Somedays I want to be held...n just don't want to be disturbed! Not a word to come out of my mouth....only my heart in its solace!
This may be a loving hug or merely a tite hold from a frnd...u just want to do sumthin that is not usual.
Sometimes you want to be around your parents and know that they will love n care for you....holding you to tell you they are there.
I want to flow in a stream....no boundations to my soul...
I want to sleep like a baby with nothing to worry or care...sometimes i wish i can seek peace like that of a baby in the mother's womb! N never cum out (sorry mummy i don't want to :-) )
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
About Time
Its about time that i open up my mind n talk to myself....well...literally!! I am on an all time high but i know i still need to be grounded....all is peachy around me yet so scary that i begin to wonder....is dis for real? :-) Now....there i see a smile...crack up on my lips...n there is still no reason to be so content.....
Lemme think...wat can it be?
- Is it d new t.v?
- My job.....nah.....no way!!
- A familiar smile dat makes my day :-) Bingo!
So well....yess...there is no philosophy to dis, but i describe it as doin a Smita....yah...dats rite....doin a Smita.....is wen u know all is well...u screw it up for urself. Reason 2: Doin a Smita is not knowing wher to turn to wen u hav to run from a situation n still expect ppl to be ther for u.....strange ain't it d ways of life? U r just soo full of urself dat u fail to notice wat d other feels.....nai kya??? ha...ha....where am i learning all dis from? shhhshh...tch tch...d mad gal syndrome has hit me again :-)
Lemme think...wat can it be?
- Is it d new t.v?
- My job.....nah.....no way!!
- A familiar smile dat makes my day :-) Bingo!
So well....yess...there is no philosophy to dis, but i describe it as doin a Smita....yah...dats rite....doin a Smita.....is wen u know all is well...u screw it up for urself. Reason 2: Doin a Smita is not knowing wher to turn to wen u hav to run from a situation n still expect ppl to be ther for u.....strange ain't it d ways of life? U r just soo full of urself dat u fail to notice wat d other feels.....nai kya??? ha...ha....where am i learning all dis from? shhhshh...tch tch...d mad gal syndrome has hit me again :-)
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Hmmmmmm...strange!
I get this strange feeling...dat my mind n heart r playing a game...my mind refuses to budge while dis hopeless heart wants to twitter around....Dil toh baccha hai jeee!! eeow....no!! Hell no! I believe ki dil toh baccha ho hi nahi sakta, hota toh itna kaise samajh leta....effortlessly :-) Muje hassi bhi aati hai aur hairani bhi hoti hai....itna sab kaise mann mein sambhaloon....jazbaat jo dil mein hain unhe kahan nikalun?
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Khamosh sa Afsana....
Khamosh sa Afsana....pani se likha hota.....na tum ne kaha hota na humne suna hota!! Dil ki baat na poocho dil toh aata rahega.....(2) Dil behkata raha hai, Dil behkata rahega.....Dil ko tumne....kuch samjhaya hota.....
Ferris Wheel!
I believe life is soon becoming a ferris wheel....everyday, year after year...u face situations that may not necessarily be new to you...sumone lives d same phase at sum point in life...n d same churns to come back to u!! My question is do all face each incident with equal confusion?? No! Then why am i soooo baffled....i feel as though someone has put a gun on my head and asked me to act in a manner dat best suits me!! But who gives u d right to decide, what is good for me n wat is not? I wana fall n get hurt....n den realise my mistake...lemme do dis, n feel happy momentarily....let me hurt n let me collect d pieces of my own heart....
Yeh jo halka...halka uns hai....muje bekabu bana gaya!! Hawa ka jhoka aaya muje apne sath uda le gaya! Muje udhna hai sabse uncha....itne uppar ki koi mujhe rok na paye!!
Yeh jo halka...halka uns hai....muje bekabu bana gaya!! Hawa ka jhoka aaya muje apne sath uda le gaya! Muje udhna hai sabse uncha....itne uppar ki koi mujhe rok na paye!!
Friday, March 19, 2010
They tell me not too!!
They tell me not too....
But i feel like,
They tell me don't do it...
But i move,
I know its wrong...but i tread d path...
n yet it feels so strong!
I am heading towards doom
N there is still no clue...
Wat i'm doin is wrong!
It breaks my heart....n i kno now wat
But i feel like,
They tell me don't do it...
But i move,
I know its wrong...but i tread d path...
n yet it feels so strong!
I am heading towards doom
N there is still no clue...
Wat i'm doin is wrong!
It breaks my heart....n i kno now wat
Ore manwa tu toh bawra hai!!
Orey manva tu to bavra hai
Tu hi jaane tu kya sochta hai
Tu hi jaane tu kya sochta hai bavre
Kyun dikhaye sapne tu sote jaagte
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
(Nainon ko moond moond)
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
Kaise main chaloon, dekh na sakoon
Anjaane raastein
(chorous)
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Dheeme bole koi iktara iktara, dheeme bole koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Sun rahi hoon sudh budh khoke koi main kahani
Poori kahani hai kya kise hai pata
Main to kisiki hoke yeh bhi na jaani
Ruth hai ye do pal ki ya rehgi sada
(kise hai pata… kise hai pata)
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
(Nainon ko moond moond)
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
Kaise main chaloon, dekh na sakoon
Anjaane raastein
Tu hi jaane tu kya sochta hai
Tu hi jaane tu kya sochta hai bavre
Kyun dikhaye sapne tu sote jaagte
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
(Nainon ko moond moond)
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
Kaise main chaloon, dekh na sakoon
Anjaane raastein
(chorous)
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Dheeme bole koi iktara iktara, dheeme bole koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Sun rahi hoon sudh budh khoke koi main kahani
Poori kahani hai kya kise hai pata
Main to kisiki hoke yeh bhi na jaani
Ruth hai ye do pal ki ya rehgi sada
(kise hai pata… kise hai pata)
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
(Nainon ko moond moond)
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
Kaise main chaloon, dekh na sakoon
Anjaane raastein
A different stroke!
It feels d same...n i hav no control over it...its flowing out of my hands into a vast sea....n i don't know wher it takes me! Y is so easy for sumone to bring abt a stir in the life of someone....who is content with his/her set up? There are so many questions that cum to my mind. I wana understand why it has become so important to make life complicated. A story that is often pushed under the carpet is still so pertinent in our society n in our life'...a woman bein tested for her sheer power of bein able to bear n still smile! Its a turmoil one does not wish to be a part of.....n i want to stop rite their in my shoes n look back at what i need to introspect.....i need to endure this stage n get past it! All I ask for is some time....n d same to pass by me....leavin everythin d way it is!
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Always let down!!!
Life may have weird ways of showing you the mirror.....i thought i am happy in my bubble of a good life....but hey...i walk/stomp thru my expectations each day....hoping against hope and wanting to be happy!! My job sucks....i hav had a rough patch lately...bad...long working days, feeling upset...n cumin back to work back at home....dying to sleep but do not get sleep....i am awake early morning wondering what am i doin n where am i......this was never my plan!!! I just wanted d comforts of love n some security.....but like they say it is ever meant to be....i find myself fighting against time and odds each day....Valentines day it is.....n here i am feelin down under the dumps....can not explain dis feeling of moroseness....n self pity.....
i guess not a day to feel positive.......
i guess not a day to feel positive.......
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